been over six months now. and the scars are still so dark. even darker now cause of summer. (yeah, how sick, the thought of former cutter in bikini tanning..ick, i look horrible) and its almost like ive been a separate person for 6 months and im just now coming back into reality. i mean, ive been down, just havent hurt myself. but now..the need..the NEED is soo bad. its like i can feel it in my arms and legs just where my body wants it. can almost feel the skin tearing, the blood dripping. all so different than the feeling of the past six months. oh..but how my arms and legs ache so bad with need..