Hi Sky,

Thanks for the welcome! Yes, I have tried therapy and meds, many times in the past. The antidepressants that I've tried either don't make a difference or they make me feel worse. I agree that I need help, I'm just afraid to make that call, and wonder if there is any real hope that I will find a way out of this.
I suffer from social phobia, and even posting on a forum causes me anxiety and fear of rejection, so this in itself is a huge step for me.
thanks again,

Jan