((((((((((tryingtobeme))))))))))

I don't know if this will help, but sexual feelings towards a therapist is not uncommon, nor feelings like he is your father figure.

It is called "transference" and is a normal part of therapy and can be very useful in getting well.

Mostly, I want to say that you are not alone with these feelings and you don't need to be ashamed.

I have had and do have transference with my T. And it is embarrasing. But I learn from it, grow from it.

I have read your other threads too, and I think you sound like a great mom.

As far as wanting to go to the hospital, have you brought it up with your T. Who knows maybe a short stay would be good for you. I've had hospital stays before and they did help me. Although you couldn't take your son. But if it is a short stay, he would probably be OK, because going there would make YOU more OK. Know what I mean?

Many hugs and Caring Thoughts--