No question here - you are experiencing something genuinely traumatic, and that on top of everything else. Being overwhelmed in this is to be expected; try not to think of yourself as pathetic. I certainly don't.

Rest, be safe. Comfort will come.

how about you do one nice thing for yourself now. It could be a shower, a snack or something totally different. You deserve it. I know it's very hard, but try, at least one small thing. You have to take care of yourself.

(((((bananasarecool))))) He wont tell you what is gong on? I am like this, I don't like to share how I feel for fear that I will drive my loved ones away. If I do try to tell them they seem to change the subject so they do not have to listen. Does he has his own problems that he has never shared with you? Maybe?

Take a shower it will make you feel better, I know how hard that can be too. But I always feel better after I take one. Sometimes it will take me days to get it done but it sure does help.

Eating is very important. Set some munchies out where you can get at them easy. You will be supprised how much you will nibble.

Hang in there you can do this. Hugs for your day.