Hi,

I think I have always felt a little low. When thinking about special events in my past I always feel a little sad or bothered. There was rarely just a happy moment with no drama (holidays, wedding, etc).

Like I said, just slightly low. I've always had awful PMS that would often last longer than it should. After my third baby I had severe post pardum depression. Severe. I was near ending everything for me. I would see things that weren't there, cry, stare at nothing, etc. This lasted for quite a long time (I couldn't even get the energy to get help). Anyway, I finally got on Prozac and birth control and that saved my life. however, 4 yrs later, I feel like I have never recovered to my general low. I feel even lower. Which is not good.

I have a great life. Wonderful husband , kids, a new home, great church. No, I don't have any friends and I know that would help, but I can't seem to make any ever.

I don't take Prozac anymore (they continued the prescription for PMS), for it makes me very tired. I haven't been formally diagnosed with depression and, honestly, feel really uncomfortable going to the Dr. for it. My husband would support me, but I'd still feel embarrassed.

Okay....after writing this it's all very clear. Ugh. Thanks for letting me vent.