Your feelings are normal - we get so close to our therapist, it's hard to 'not' have feelings.
As for going into the hospital I do understand that as well.
Wishing it was like they used to show on the old t.v. movies that you could just walk around on the green green grass.
As for friends I'm there too.
I think that's not that we RUN the AWAY - I realized they just don't know how to handle their stuff so how can they deal with someone elses.
We've all got stuff ALL got STUFF
As for that monkey chain..... just think you might feel that your at the bottom - BUT it's the 'most' risky and you're still hanging on!