You have been through an awful lot. I hope that you are able to get effective help this time and that you get what you need.

It's hard to find therapists who can accept medicare or medicaid because medicare and medicaid limit providers they will accept. Sometimes only one counseling center in a community will be authorized, and that center generally has a mandate to serve everyone eligible, and there are pretty much always more eligible than they can serve. I'm positive that it is set up this way to save money for medicare and medicaid by making services less available. It's too bad, but those therapists who wouldn't take your funding probably had no choice about it.

Anyway, you do deserve a good therapist who helps you, and I hope that you have found just that this time. It took me 8 tries. Sometimes you just have to keep on looking.