I can't sleep. It's been like this for days. Pdoc appointment in 16 days. 16 days without real sleep scares me. I had some spare ambien I took with 2 mg klonopin. No good. I won't do that again. Looked up all the side effects. Nothing. Called my doctor friend who laughed at me and told me to have fun washing my car and cleaning my room all night. SO I cried because I have been cleaning my room all night. I think maybe I need some diazepam, but I don't think my doctor will give it to me. Oh well. Maybe he'll have a better idea. I'm a bit manic. I don't know what to do. My friend said, "Just sleep." If it were so easy I'd already be there. So I cleaned my room, and I'm painting my nails and all of this energy has to wind down soon, I know it. Bipolar sucks.
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