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[quote=tmac87;1113728]I am so confused right now. I feel like dieing would help me, but then the baby wouldn't be given a chance at life so I am trying ever so hard to fight the urge just for her. Please keep trying to fight the urges for dieting and SI.
I try to talk to my T about this but she just thinks that continueing with the trauma therapy will help. I kinda feel and think that its making me feel way worse. I feel that if this is to much right now, your T should respect and understand that. If your T doesn't then maybe you need to go to a new T. Right now what is important is to keep you and baby healthy and do what's best for your's and the best best interest. You sound like you want to do that and I commend you for knowing how important this baby is.
The ONLY reason I am trying to hang in there is because of the baby but I have this overwhelming feeling that after I give birth things are just going to fall apart really quickly. You may go through post partum depression. Please make sure you T is aware and knows how to treat it. If not you will need a T who specializes in it to keep you safe. I went through postpartum very badly, my T saved my life...honest, my life...I was done after I had my baby, but I am still here thanks to my T
I know that the adoption is the best answer for the babys sake. Wonderful that you know this is the best thing to do. THat makes you a good person knowing what's right.
I seriously hope that who ever is reading this doesnt think that I am crazy you are not crazy, this happens so many times to woman
Maybe talking to crisis will be a good thing for you and your baby. Please do take good care of yourself.
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