Have you read the Desiderata (my version) lately?
Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own life, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in all your affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of character to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with life (or god),
whatever you conceive it to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
To be honest I often do not feel that the world, or rather humankind is so beautiful. Except when I'm here at PC. You don't have to "DO" anything to BE worthwile. Simply being you is a gift to those who can see it. People here who simply take the time to read and respond or "profile hop" with small messages of joy or concern mean so much to me, help me so much. If you couldn know how much, you would not feel "worthless." You are not worthless. To paraphrase someone else here, none of us wanted to be in "our group" here, but together we are stronger and healthier than we are alone. Don't discount what a smile or a few kind, caring words can mean for another who is suffering as much as you are. And I care and am so sorry you are suffering. 