boy, do i know that feeling. i'm connected to one sister. sometimes i feel so alone that my stomach just heaves........it's an awful feeling and i wish you didn't have it. i can't have a connection to my bro or the other sister. too toxic....so, even if you know that, it still hurts.....hang in there. grace, you're doing what is best for you and that matters...in the long round, your emotional health will be better....xoxo pat