I'm not worried anything would happen, even if he was "available". I still don't want him to know about this. I'm a proud person so to me that would be just mortifying. So do people see these in others..? I mean, I don't think anyone's ever had a crush on me, so I wouldn't know How should I NOT act like?

Fantasies can be fun.. but to me this isn't fun, more confusing and frustrating to the point of being painful. I feel like I can't control myself and I hate that! I've still managed to go on without asking him to be my fb-friend or anything, but I don't know how long I can fight the insanity