The situation that you're in reminds me a lot of something that I'm trying to deal with. Although she and I were just friends, I'm really beginning to realize that I wanted a lot more than that. I also felt like I needed to be with her to be happy.

You said, "She's a part of my life experience and always will be and it wasn't all bad." That's exactly the way I feel about my friend. I realize that I invested a lot more in the friendship than she did, but I would like to think that in some ways I'm a better person since I've known her.

After a discussion with her a few months ago that didn't go very well, I started to tell her that we were through as friends. I think the only reason that I didn't was because my T suggested that I not do that. I'm trying to get it settled in my mind that we are through as friends. After all, we haven't had a friendly discussion in months. I keep hoping that things will change. If they do, I know that I need to have a different approach to our friendship. One where I protect my feelings a whole lot better.