You said you use to care about going to church. Have you considered talking to a pastor about this. I'm sorry that you haven't been able to find someone irl who understands. It's not fair that medical practitioners have so little training in this area. Also, look into Celebrate Recovery. There might be one near you and they will understand the feelings you're going through. They have been the most supportive family for me. I went to the chemical addiction group because they were the ones who understood what I was going through. Cutting is like a drug for most of us and you really need the support. If you can't find a Celebrate Recovery you may want to consider going to Alcoholics Anonymous meetings. Most of them will understand your feelings too.

I'm so sorry that people who you should be able to trust are letting you down. Hang in there.