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Thanks Yoda, nice to hear from you. That is funny what you said about the bugs, I had the same thing. Fortunately, I was able to get to sleep about 5 this morning. I got about 6 hrs and I definitely feel better.
Are you bipolar? Do you take meds? I have problems with meds, although I know that they saved my life and they help millions. But, I don't like the way I feel on them and I don't like the idea of changing myself to fit into society. And, I do have that nagging voice in my head saying why do you need this stuff. I guess one thing that makes this disorder so difficult is the fact that we have stages or phases when we do fine. And then, all of the sudden, right back in the deep dark abyss. Then, we blame ourselves for it all.
Although, I am feeling that I might give meds a try again.
Can I also ask you, do you have any substance abuse issues. You see, because I constantly wonder if I am the cause. There is the side of me that knows I had problems from as far back as I can remember and I always felt different. You certainly don't think about self medicating when you are a teen. You drink and party to be social, meet new people and have fun. It's confusing but I'd say with 100% certainty that I did and still do, self medicate with weed.
Thanks,
Ken
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