[quote=Fuzzybear;1112499]am I allowed to hold a stuffy, in here, without being judged
Oh my goodness you can have anything you want that makes you feel warm
parental units said no new clothes no toys
The mother of yourself need to treat them as they want to be - which sounds to me --- like their in denial, and REALLY DO WANT new stuff.
anything for me equals unforgiveable selfishness
only they matter
If you only give yourself what THEY say you should get then in actuality THEY are being selfish as THEY WANT YOU do what THEY WANT.
only they are important
Yes they think ONLY THEY SELFISHLY WANT YOU TOO HAVE OR NOT HAVE
i should never have been born
But you are born! You are the mother of the wonderful littles inside you that didn't get what they needed and deserved.
So You must be your own Mother and tend to the little (you's) inside,their needs as you wanted your needs to be met.

You can hold them, caress them, talk softly to them, give them a special stuffy baby,... everything you would give to you if you were the mother. You can be the mother to yourself that you did not have!
should curl up into nothingness, only way to hope to be safe
The littles have curled up for SSSSOOO long.... make it safe for them, each of them in each stage of life where they need to be helped to grow up. Be the Mommy

f******* them
YES F'M !

I, starlite (Susan), care very much about you. Everytime I see your little teddy bear, she makes me smile and I like knowing you are there. Just there... Stabilitly for me - and that is selfish on my part. But I don't know I wouldn't feel happy like I am when I see you.