Thank you want! It's not that it was hard per say but it wasn't easy either. I know I have DID, but I am trying to get past the black outs and start remembering when they come out, and when people like that pdoc and my husband tell me DID isn't real or I don't have it, it seems to make my progress in accepting the alters fall back a little.

It would have been worse probably if he hadn't used the word "seizure" so many times and that as his excuse, but I KNOW they aren't seizures. So that helps that I can tell myself he's COMPLETELY wrong. But it still upsets me a bit.

I'm trying not to let it interfere with my acceptance but it's a little difficult. This is going to take MUCH longer for me than I had originally thought, especially when all the doctors I see only want to deny DID or want to "cure" it. I think for now, until I accept it and they come out of hiding, that I will put my t search on hold, I don't need anything to push them further away. I'm having a difficult time as it is.

Thanks again for the comment and the kind words! They are MUCH appreciated!
((((((((wanttoheal)))))))) TC!