I have been trying to find a new T but I can't seem to find any that specialize in DID that my insurance covers and when I talk to Ts on the phone and I tell them about it, they tell me "Oh we'll fix that" or "Oh don't worry I can help you get rid of that" and when I tell them I don't want to get rid of it, I want to help it get further along, that's when they get scared. It's quite frustrating and discouraging so I'm not sure if I'm going to continue the search right now. I told the pdoc I did NOT want antidepressants and that's exactly what he gave me, they just don't seem to listen and they don't think I know myself. I know I need help but I have been dealing with this for 18 years, I know what I want and I know what helps and doesn't. I don't have all the answers but I know more than they give me credit for.

When I was diagnosed with DID my T didn't even explain it to me at first. He didn't tell me what it was or anything, it took 8 months before he had given me ANY type of diagnosis and the day he did he gave them all to me... Not sure why he waited. Eventually after I brought it up with him again, (I saw the movie Identity and got worried) he explained it and said he wanted to try hypnotism to try and get them out. He's the ONLY T I have EVER met that has accepted my DID and not wanted to get rid of it. Most don't reject it but they think it's "dangerous" It's so frustrating, I wish I could find a T that specializes in it but the one I did find (by recommendation) said he couldn't help me and he wants to get rid of them.

Now if I do find a T I'm not sure how to go about finding one that specializes in DID. This is frustrating and that's for sure!