Yes, Adderal I like. I totally get the focus thing. I like pills mostly. Ones that get me cleaning the house or something. My husband told me the exact thing yesterday, just lay down and you'll fall asleep. I don't like sleeping. I feel like it's a waste of time most of the time. When I'm depressed I just lay in bed but usually don't fall asleep. I just sit there and think, why am i so F***ed up? I went to a psychiatrist a week ago, thinking I was going to be able to actually get all my feeling out, tell my life story. I was in there for ten minutes! He told me to go back the next day but I didn't. How is somebody try different drugs on me and they don't even know anything about me? I have a son and I'm afraid that I'm going to have a zombie effect on them and won't be able to take care of him. So, i basically try to deal with it my own ways, which by the way, isn't working.