definately went "there" tonight in t. all the old scripts were running against what she was saying. we felt in trouble, not accepted, voices were clammoring for SI, sui, leaving... hard hard session. had to fight against all of it. well, not "fight" - no energy when depression hits that bad - and to be in session 3 feet away from the one i wanted to see for 2 weeks =( totally depressed. totally. she definately saw it, and tried to make me "get it" that it is because she cares... and that i take what they are saying and translate it into something bad... but... i've not been that miserable in T in a long time... if ever.