it is five in the morning where I am and I am wide awake and feel more energized than I have all day. If I was to try to get a few hours, I would wake up feeling like crap and be sluggish all day. When I start seeing things, that's when I say, okay..maybe now it's time for sleep. And right now I'm sitting here typing thinking, I wonder if I'm manic right now. The last few months I have been severely depressed about EVERYTHING in my life right now. My father's dying, my son's is Autistic and that been very hard, I'm in a relationship where I feel stuck, I'm in the middle of nowhere and I hate it here. Then the last few days, I feel more energized. Usually when I'm manic, I can read a book in a night, my self esteem goes through the roof and I don't need sleep. I really like it though. I'm afraid that if I am put on meds I won't feel like that and I don't want that part of it to go away.