I feel I can relate here. I fell in love with a guy... I honestly thought I met my soulmate. Unfortunately he didn't love ME... we went through a very rough patch because of my feelings, and he did some things that hurt me a GREAT deal... but then he said he wanted to be just friends still... he wanted our friendship to remain. I told him that wasn't possible... I couldn't be friends with him, talk to him, see him, etc... and NOT hold him, kiss him, make love to him... it hurt TOO much! It STILL hurts... I think about him EVERY day, I dream about him... I swear I even SMELL him sometimes. But I haven't heard his voice or seen his face since February... there were a couple of text messages and emails since then... including where he recently emailed me and said "I am so glad we're friends"... to which I replied a LONG email again explaining that as much as I love him and want him in my life, I CANNOT be just friends. What is bad is I am totally in love with him... but deep down, I think he is NOT right for me... that we shouldn't be together. However, I am totally weak when it comes to him, and if he came back and said "I made a mistake, I DO love you"... I would JUMP at he chance to be with him, even knowing it's probably not the right thing... but I can't help it, I love him TOO much!
But every day... I think 'WHY... why can't I stop loving him, why can't I stop thinking about him, why can't I stop missing him..." And I wish I knew the answer!! I know the situations are different... but I feel the same in that I can't get over the thoughts of him... I can't stop thinking of him, I can't get him out of my head, and it drives me nuts!!
So I feel your pain!! You aren't the only one out there!