and to be in session 3 feet away from the one i wanted to see for 2 weeks =( totally depressed. totally. she definately saw it, and tried to make me "get it" that it is because she cares...

OH KIYA! ((((((((Kiya)))))))

But this is a hopeful thought- that you know she cares

I agree that the next session will be better, Im sure she will help you with that
How do feel today? Any better?