I had my no-sleep, post-illness session with T today.

It was a REALLY GOOD session I was MAJORLY triggered by Scary Guy in waiting room, who has session at the same time as me and is the LOUD TRIGGERING VOICE I always hear through the wall. He is so scary. So I went in literally shaking all over, but managed to get to a safe enough place to actually have the session be about things other than the triggering voice next door (we lose a lot of sessions to that guy!)

Anyhow, during my session, I told T I thought he should be more like Carl Rogers! lololol I can't think of any therapist who is MORE like Carl Rogers...and the funny thing is it's because I was lecturing him on not having expectations, just trusting me to grow and heal at my own pace. And in the lecture, I was basically saying "but here's my expectation for YOU...I need you to be like the very guy who INVENTED the sort of therapy we're doing - the master!" T said "I'm only a therapist". T is so good to put up with me

We talked a lot about the rupture of this summer and both of our feelings about it. That was helpful to both of us, I think. And we had time to get into - and back out of - some yucky childhood stuff that came up last night.

It's amazing how much can be crammed into 50 minutes sometimes.

When I left I really felt like I didn't need a message. But he's been leaving me one after every appointment for FOREVER, and I had this little bit of paranoia that I would change my mind later and it would be the weekend and too late. So I called and asked for the message. I think I will try the "no message" thing on a Tuesday appointment when I know he's there in between sessions if I need him.

Wishing EVERYONE who has a session today a good, connecting session