Coconut,
Thank you...I will try to post after session this evening, if I am not a mess

Tree,
I am really feeling like I should talk to her about this issue because if I don't I probably won't be able to hear anything she says in reference dealing with my mom's death.

I'm just really afraid to, afraid of her reaction, last time we had an issue there was no reassurance or recognition of my feelings until later down the road, but at that point, I had a hard time excepting it. You know that old saying what comes out of the mouth must be in the heart. She must of felt what she told me that evening to come out and say what she did, and react the way she did. Even if she later recanted some of it.
I figured I would let it slide....and had, or at least thought I had, but obviously not completely because this present issue brings me right back to that old issue.

I have a hard time dealing with this stuff and trusting.....
It's good that your T helps you through all of that, I think the biggest thing is because he is very accepting of your feelings.....that makes a huge difference...He realizes they come from somewhere and he doesn't get defensive about them, even if you tell him he did something wrong...that makes for a great T because in the end therapy is not about them....it's working on figuring out what we need and leading us to insight...

Confused,
What your T does is what I need. Thats what I desire in it, acceptance and looking at it. Also hearing the words sorry if need be ect...

I'm certainly good at creating catastrophy in my mind but I am also sure there are good explanations as to why.
If I get the courage to give her the letter, I hope it goes well.

Thank you all for your responses......the time is getting closer and I feel like I have nothing to say.....sort of numb, as opposed to being really upset about the whole thing earlier.....