I'm sorry that I'm not much good for anyone here. I do a lot of lurking. I am not good with words. They never come out the way that I want them to. I am so afraid of saying the wrong thing and ending up bringing someone down.

Today I have read some wonderful posts. I don't understand how you all can say just the right things to help someone feel better. I can't.

I have been brought to tears today on PC. Both good tears and bad. I wish that I had important words for you all. Sometimes just to let someone know that I feel for them and want their hurt to go away but I don't know the right words I will send hugs. They are sincere if I go to the trouble of sending them. But now I read that maybe my hugs are only hurting people. That is so far away from my intentions. I am SO sorry if I have hurt someone with my hugs.

Anyway, I am just rambling again. Sorry.

I am sitting here crying as I type. I finally talked my pdoc into letting me try without antidepressants. I have been off for about a month. But for the last week or two I am realizing that it may not be a good idea. I so want to be drug free. But...

Well, anyway again. I come to PC to be among people who are suffering like me. I need to know that I am not unique in my pain. I need to know that I am not alone. I don't come often simply because it is hard for me to get off the couch. Let alone pour my heart out. But now I find out that what I do do is hurting someone, my hugs. I'm sorry.

Enough, my emotions are coming too easily these days.