Welcome ! From your first post in this thread to your last, there is a major difference.........a willingness to reach out not only here, but to make that phone call ! Way to go !!! This is a great site, and many many supportive and helpful people, you will not feel alone, or rejected here ! Good luck with the step of making that phone call, and keep us posted how you are feeling. (And altho I understand that you are feeling like we can see you, try to focus on the fact that we have no idea who you are, where you are etc. This is a good and safe post to share whatever you feel comfortable sharing..........it may help you more than you can imagine to start here with sharing more about yourself !

Me - I am an open book - had panic and anxiety disorder for 17 years undiagnosed, thought I was gonna live my life out in a State Mental Hospital.......found the right therapist, overcame the PAD with agoraphobia, and just keep on getting better, the more I share and learn! Keep on keepin on !