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Old Aug 28, 2009, 12:27 AM
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Originally Posted by ECHOES View Post
(((worriers))) Thank you. This happened after 1 year of no periods, and I had it checked then and a Vaginal Ultrasound and D&C.
But back then, I had good insurance that covered it. Now, I can't afford it. So I will wait and see...

I had a cortisone injection for frozen shoulder/bursitis and wondered if that could have triggered something, but my research isn't showing any connection. Who knows

Anyway...I did have a good session with T. All about anger and what I do with it. Leaving was a thread throughout the session: leaving my life (SI ideation a bunch), leaving my job, leaving the state where I live, leaving T and T leaving (or, leaving T in retaliation for T going away/leaving). Lots of leaving around my leaving my last session early to avoid having to admit I was angry with T. Oh the layers! Fear of speaking my own thoughts. Instead I said "I want to go home. I just want to be at home."
Admitting being angry with T was too dangerous so I took myself away, locked myself away at home, safe.
Like I used to seclude myself in my room, safe.

That was a good session. I wish I didn't have to wait a week to see her , I love going twice a week. But this is what I have to do for now. Not THAT makes me angry, I can admit to that.
Hmmm...I wounder if the cortizone injectons could have affected your period. I had some steriod (small bits) injected into my arm for sun poisoning a while ago and it threw off my period.

It sounds like a good session What you do with anger. And leaving. Even the word gives me chills. It makes me afraid I will be abandoned forever. Do you think you abandoned t before she abandoned you? It is so painful.
In my session today (last before her vaca) I couldnt get up to go. It was so sad and felt like she would never come back
Thanks for this!
ECHOES