I am doing very well. No tendency to physically harm myself since that one episode, but I do still have visualizations of stabbing myself in the heart, particularly at bedtime when trying to go to sleep. But I am beginning to analyze what triggers these feelings, and talk to myself when it happens. Also, I am involved in very happy, healthy activities now, on a daily basis (grad classes in Art), and it is a true blessing. As a result of this, I do have faith that any residual bad thoughts of the cause of this will gradually diminish, and, happily, the man who was the catalyst for it will be unimportant....in fact!! I already feel that way more and more each day.
Seeker