((((((((((((((((((((((fallen)))))))))))))))))))))) Good quote!

I've talked to T about the fear of changing. But I think my desire to change must be stronger, because despite the fear, I keep changing!!

I seem to be entering a new phase of therapy, as I've been wondering if I should allow myself to feel the feelings I've been running from for FOREVER about the things that happened to me in childhood. Could I stop running then? What would that feel like?

I talked to T about it yesterday, and he said that there are always consequences for change. He told me to wonder about what that change would mean for me...and I HAVE been wondering about it. It's so hard to forsee what the consequences will be, you know?? And "consequence" sounds like a bad word, to me, but of course, there are both bad consequences and GOOD consequences...

I think for me, where I WAS was definitely not a good place, so I hang onto the thought that where I'm going has to be better, even if it's scary getting there.