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Originally Posted by thinker22
I know the feeling. Only thing that stops me is my love for my mate. I couldn't abandon him. I'd totally max out my cards and move to a new place with a cooler climate if I did run off. Maybe I should just tell him we have to move or I'm outta here. He doesn't want to move. I know my mental state will only improve temporarily after the move, but hey, it's something.
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My husband and I are currently looking for a place to live. And like you, I feel like my mental state will on be temporarily fixed. I have already found that my family is a trigger for me and my NEIGHBORS are a huge trigger for me. I am scared that I will be fine for a little while after we are moved and then I will have an episode and my husband will regret even moving! I am really scared of a lot of things right now. BP is a new diagnoses. I can look back at least 4 years and see how if all fits together now, but I am scared now. I am scared I will not see the moods changing, I am scared to go to sleep at night because I have been having nightmares. My husband restricted me from the bank accounts, I have to ask him to give me my meds because of a recent suicide thought. I feel like my life has been stripped away. I know I am rambling.