clk6: Thanks for responding. I'm always afraid she will change her mind about calling if I do it too often. I usually want to call soon after the session to clarify something. I may do that today because I realized it was a MAJOR acccomplishment to put "love" and "you" in the same sentence to her. It seemed so easy, but that's because I've been struggling with my feelings for her for 6 years! I want to be sure she knows how HUGE that accomplishment really is. I'm sure she does know, but I don't remember what she said yesterday. It was almost effortless, natural in the session. I'm surprised and pleased with myself!

peaches: you are absolutely correct. My T is willing to let me be closer to her when I don't obsess about her. It's almost like she rewards healthier behavior. I know she uses behavior modification with other people. I LIKE this relationship with her instead of the obsessive one. It gives me a warm feeling inside of me to know that I have control over how the relationship goes, and to know that she is truly happy that I have come this far. Therapy is a partnership and she and I did this together!!