I saw t for the lasst appt yesterday and now it is her vaca. It was a good appt but a lot of things that were said are coming back to me now. I want more and I want her How will I last for 10 more days?

I feel so sad and my mind goes to bad places when I get this way. Why cant I just react normally and tell myself, c'mon its a short while? I feel so strongly that she will forget me. Not like a joke that she will forget my name, but I wont be part of her thoughts or life for 10 more days. She will forget what we are working on and forget who she is to me. I dont want to shut down and then get angry that she is away. Because thats coming next And then I will want to run but there is nowhere to run to.

I want to call her but it just seems a little over the top since I just saw her yesterday. I have to try to handle this like a grown up. I dont feel very much like a grown up right now. I feel like a little girl who wants someone who is not there to love me.