After T session today, my heart is heavier than before.
some things revealed
nothing really horrible--but very scary things for a 5 yr old.
it's ok now--bad man isn't coming back, won't shoot me or dad--
dad won't shoot anyone again (shot an intruder in the hand after intruder
shot at him and grazed him......little one says daddy wouldn't 've got shot
if she stayed under the bed like he said--some guilt there.)
no comforting after the incident. just a good spanking for not obeying

then after T i stopped at a good friend's house hoping for a few min to just
decompress.....her brother and sister in law were there. no private time....she knew there was something, but can't go there when it's not safe you know.

so i'm in scared mode
rocking and trying to bring my mind back to now
god, i just hope i dont' hear a gun or a siren right now....
not stable enough not to head for a closet.
have to go to chiropractor now....