This is a great reflection. We fear and distort things that we don't really understand or haven't experienced a lot or the few times that we have the wrong person was touching or hugging. I've been trying to provide myself with more positive small safe touch situations so that I have a better understanding of what others who haven't experienced abuse tend to feel or interpret.

My comment earlier were just trying to say..although we get unbalanced by unexpected hugging, it may not have been such a big deal for your T to handle. She is not likely to be angry and kick you out of therapy because of an extemporanious hug. I was just suggesting that your therapeutic relationship will survive this.