thanks Micah.
I just needed someone telling me some positive things.
In past,lots of negative has jumbled up inside my head.
Thank GOD,we all have CONTROL over our mind.
Yes I am going to do positive things from now on.
but i can tell from experience,becuz it so much of negative,Id need people like to keep reminding that v hv control to push these thoughts and to accept and to forgive/