My hematologist often asks me, as part of my exam, if I am experiencing bone pain, a symptom of this foolish disorder due to my misbehaving bone marrow.
I never know how to answer such questions. I seem to have a high tolerance for pain, both physical and emotional.
But today...my bones ache. Not so much, I don't think, from the blood disorder but from sadness.
I am filled with such a great, deep sadness today. The kind that weighs you down where smiling is near impossible and the world revolves in slow motion around you.
I will snuggle down in the muddy muck and rest.
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