I went to see a new T this week. But I'm not sure about it. I feel like I should give it more time to see if it settles out. I was going over the background information and mentioned that after college my brother who said he would let me move in with him backed out two weeks before I was supposed to move in. I mentioned that he believed my relationship with my parents was find and I should move in there. I stated that he did not know what it was like living with my parents as he had moved out when I was still in middle school. Later I stated that he was there when I was little and so did know some about my parents fighting, but not the abuse. She said something like "well, then everything wasn't hunky dory for him either". I admit that it wasn't a joy growing up in my family and there was some shared miserable experiences, it was that he was not there when I was in high school or college and hence did not know how bad things got. I felt like she wanted to defend my brother's suggestion that I move home and did not support my view that it was not a viable option. It has made me really mad. Should I continue to see someone who has made me really mad on my first visit? Or should I treat it like a growing experience?

I know my old T (who has been wonderful and who I started seeing closely after graduating,) said she would help me find a new T. She understood when I said that I couldn't live with my parents. I told her shortly before I left about my fear that when I started seeing her she would suggest I move in with my parents. I never had as strong of a feeling as I do now with this new T as I did then. I don't want to bother my old T with having to try and find another person. My Pdoc who said he would help me find someone, but his suggestions have fallen through, said he would be happy to help but when I talked with him he seemed reluctant to continue helping me even though because of my situation I have very specific requirements. Before I moved he said he would help, but now he just seems annoyed. I don't want the same thing to happen with my T. I just don't know what to do and I'm so stressed out from moving that my brain just feels like mush. Any comments or advice?