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I just hate life. It doesn't get better, I look back for as long as I can remember and it's like this. I just can't believe it'll get better. I can't find any more support - I have a T and go to a support group, but it's so limited. I can't trust anyone enough to expect anything from them. And I can't bother to hope, that hurts too much.

I'm not interested in anything anymore... I've had many interests when I've felt better, but nothing now. It's all so meaningless to me.