You are doing the healing very well. It's true that people shouldn't wait so long and hide their feelings. I hate to say it, but my relationship officially "died"(for lack of words?!) in January 2000. Things had already been rather shaky for us by then, but after that day my emotions had been completely severed. I lived for almost two years living a lie that we were a partially-happy couple, but with a history of some problems. Our child's psychologist could see that I was struggling with our issues and I finally confessed to him what happened that one day and that I had in sense "built a wall" in our relationship. Eventually one thing led to another and we are now getting divorced. I still feel some attachment to him. After all, after spending so much time and personal moments with someone its hard not to care. I love him as a friend and hate him as a husband. What you say is true. It sounds like you are moving on. I'm glad to hear that you had such a great time for a while this weekend! My weekend could have been a little better, but I'll put that in a separate post.