I am starting to become aware of how my brain works. I always thought it would be interesting if it weren't my brain, lol. I wanted to share something that I've noticed about me. It's okay if your system is not like mine. We are different people with different experiences.

I would like to have a discussion on parts, but I really am not wanting to have arguments. I would love to have people's opinions and experiences, but please, if you have a problem with what I am posting, could you please disagree in a respectful manner or take it to another thread.

I used a trigger icon due to mention of bl**d and just the fact that parts can trigger.

I was reading in another thread about older parts. I found out a while ago that I do have parts that have taken on older personas (if that is the correct word). Apparently when I was young, I needed someone older to take care of me (and perhaps some other children who were in my home, not sure). My brain created an older part, one who cleans up bl**d, takes care of cuts and bruises, medical stuff, that sort of thing.

There were some more recent events in my life where this part of me dealt with people in my life, doing the same thing. I found out that she was very calm, didn't really talk much, but was very adept at cleaning up... well bl**d and bandaging cuts and things.

If I see bl**d, it freaks me out. I saw pictures of some things she dealt with within the last few years and if I had been present in my brain, I think I would have either thrown up or passed out. Even the pictures were too much for me. But she was able to deal with it with no problem at all, calmly and effectively according to T and daughter.

T said though, that she (I in that capacity) was limited in what she could do. While this part was older, she lacked (and I suppose still lacks) a lot of the emotional skills of an adult. She can clean up, bandage and take care of children (even fixed up my children when they got hurt), but when T talked to her about other (emotional) things, this part of me apparently could not comprehend it.

Even while a little freaked out about it, I found it interesting that that part of me, formed when I was a small child, even to this day, has the attributes of a child's version of an adult. I don't know if this part considers herself to be older than what the body is now but I do know that she considers herself to be "very old", a phrase that seems like it came from a child's mind.

T has talked with her periodically, but I don't know the outcome of what was talked about.

Have any of you guys noticed that older parts of you react and act from a child's viewpoint of what an adult is like?