You are doing great. I think that it is great you are able to be open and share with your T. I try and I wish I could share some of the painful feelings I have and experiences. I start and then something happens and I just stop. I know my T can see that I struggle with somethings when it comes to sharing. I can see the pain and shared frustration in my T's face. I know (even though I sometimes doubt) my T is there for me when I am ready to spill it all. Sometimes when I share about how I feel about sessions I feel so embarrassed and guilty for having negative thoughts about my therapy. But my T shared with me that if I don't let her know she is guessing and it is not productive for me. You have nothing to feel bad about. You are doing your part in getting healthy and that is great!