Thank you all for much love and hugs.......and meaningful words.....

I am philosophical.......as always......my journey takes me far and brings me closer at the same time.......sometimes it is overwhelming......

Yesterday after I posted this I took half a valium to restore my vestibular issues and:

went to my library and got two new Anne Rice books to read(Anne Rice....author Interview with a Vampire and the Vampire Chronicles......LOVE her writing)

Helped my man buy some stuff from the manly men at Bursons Auto parts.....very nice to me.....and we "talked cars".......I haven't a clue! But it was a nice masculine moment.......love the way men speak to each other

Then went to my local Chinese supermarket and revelled in the lovely language and spoke "chinese" to the lovely elderly woman there selling tasty food.......I can't speak chinese so we just ended up laughing together and she gave me this wonderful smile and a slight bow of the head......she knew me, on the inside.......I feel so comfortable with their culture and feel like I have come home in a way.......much feeling and joy......

And my hope was restored.......

Then I had a big blow up that night.......long story but I yelled at my son on the phone out of fear and fright, and then firmly spoke to the father of my sons friend.......I felt that due dilligence was not shown and my son showed much lack of responsibility.......but my son came home, and he is safe.......but was in trouble!! I calmed immediately when he was in our home again........and safe within my embrace.......then he got a talking to.....

Today, peace reigns once more........and I remember that lovely woman in the chinese supermarket and the wisdom of her eyes and the knowing of her smile........and I am thankful......

All is still........

Big, big hugs to you all.......thank you for loving...

Michah