Well, I should have known. I should have known. I can not beleive how stupid I am to think that he actually wanted to be in their lives after all this time. I must be a real idiot. Damn it. This is exactly why I should have left well enough alone.

He called this morning and said that they were not going to be able to visit the children today and maybe he will try next weekend. I was like OK.

The kids were asking if they were going to see him today and I said NO. They didnt asked any questions at all. I think because deep down, they know and that hurts me so badley that he has hurt them. I am so stupid to allow this to happen.