It hurts to know what I really am, & what my past is, but how could one ever change it.

SAWE- I also wonder the same thing. I think it is that we wont ever change it. Never. Childhood is over. But we can have something else, maybe something better and heal the wounds enough to be...whatever....happy?

You are a very compassionate person. You always have the most compassionate things to say to other people here. But if you had compassion for yourself you might have even more of an internal feeling of understanding for others. Thats the idea. I also have little compassion for myself in some things. But I feel so much for others, especially for my children. As if I listen to the terrible things I tell myself but Id never believe it about someone I care about or let them say those things about themselves.