(((((((((((((kiya))))))))))))))) This happens to me too when I'm in a really bad place. It's super scary.

It happens in T's office sometimes, and once I was seeing scary eyes in the pillow on the other end of the couch. I was hiding behind my hands with my eyes closed because I was scared. T kept telling me to pick up the pillow and throw it across the room where I could see it, but I didn't want to because it was too scary. He kept saying "It's a pillow, throw it" and I finally got mad at him for telling me what to do over and over again and I lunged forward and grabbed it and threw it across the room and....it totally broke the spell. It WAS just a pillow, there weren't scary eyes.

So, I am wondering (truly wondering, because I don't know) if you touched the thing that looked scary, if it would break the spell??

When the room starts to spin when I am with T, if I touch T - hold his hand or even touch fingertip to fingertip - it makes the spinning stop and reality come back. Same idea, I guess.

Lots and lots of and to you, sweet kiya.