((((lost49))))

Dear one, I am sorry you are feeling so low. I can understand why and you have every right to your feelings. I know how we can worry about our children and our grandchildren. I know how sometimes it is a hopeless feeling. And you want so much to help them but there is just nothing you can do except send them loving thoughts and prayers.

I understand about missing a child. Not in the way you have experienced but similar in so many aspects. I can feel your pain there and I know that you cannot forget it or get it out of your mind. It is hard for me to even talk about this at all. The pain is excruciating. But I know that somehow it will let up a little at a time. But it takes alot of time.

I am not there yet myself but I do understand. Please be kind to yourself and keep reaching out. We are here for you and we are listening. Sometimes it is hard to do that I know, but even just a hi to let us know you are okay.

I agree with what has been said as far as meds go. There are ways to get help to get them. Please try to look into that for your meds are important. There are means out there.

I know you are tired of depression. It is cruel and it does not care who it hits. It has no mercy and it lies to us. Keep reaching out and fighting it. For it hates us to reach out and ask for support. But if we keep reaching it will someday lose its grip if we are consistant.

I know the feeling of wanting to give up. But if we all gave up, we would allow the depression and the past to win. We are all survivors and we survived for a reason. And together we can encourage and help one another through the rough times. And we can be there to share when there is a good time.

Everyday try to do something kind for you. You are so worth it. Please keep us informed on how you are doing. We do care. And we are here for you. Sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts.

dps