Thank you, kind peoples. I think this is going to be an ongoing soap opera for a while. The support is appreciated by all.

I've been able to see his side in this. I know how my dysfunctions and problems made life here difficult at times and not a lot of fun. I can honestly say though, that I have tried hard to be good to my kids and my spouse. If this were just physical problems, would he be so unkind??? In the back of my head I kinda think he would. He wants me to be and do what he wants. What I want doesn't matter unless there is nothing going on and then it is ok for my thing.

What makes me angriest is being treated like a liar. I am telling the truth. It happened as I said and I will get over it as soon as I can. I hate being mistrusted. Grrrr!!!