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Aug 30, 2009, 01:32 AM
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Member Since: Mar 2009
Location: So Cal
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In a sense I have been accused of that. One minute, my family is saying how ungrateful I am of their help and how I need to change and take care of myself and that I need to have faith....
and the next minute they are telling me to "be careful" and that they don't want to see me get screwed. And they say "you know what happens....things get out of hand and then you can't deal with them."
Thanks for the vote of confidence.....
So, on one hand I need to have faith in the world and in myself and I should be grateful to them for all their help, yet on the other hand, they knock me down and do what they can to keep me afraid and dependent on them. Then they talk about me behind my back as if I were some ignoramous who didn't know how to care for myself.
In a way, I feel like this is there way of blaming me for my "woundedness". They perpetuate the pain...they feed it and they break me down and after they're done making me afraid and encouraging me to doubt myself, they tell me to have faith and believe in myself.
It's quite exhausting. 
Sorry Fuzzy...it wasn't my intention to high-jack the thread...just wanted to share my experiences and how what you said made sense to me. 
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