kim: I see it but still want to call her. I don't know what to do. I wrote just a couple of sentences to say, and ask if she agrees. You think calling is regressing, slipping back? I just want to hear her say she KNOWS how important the session was. That's all.

tree: But my next appointment is 4 months away! Who knows what may happen in that time? Sorry to be morbid but what if she dies and I am never sure she understood? I know I'm sounding crazy (maybe I'm not so recovered after all) but I would regret it I don't tell her, or ask her. I think it will give me closure, but of course you are right. Sometimes she says something that could make it "not all right" and that would detract from my good feelings.

Will it change anything if she doesn't know and if I don't have confirmation from her? I think you've actually hit one of my core issues. I FEEL like it will. I feel like I have to talk to her about it. I'm going to be depressed if I don't. I don't know how to make these decisions for myself. I shouldn't have needed to ask about it here, but maybe you and kim are right. I'm better off not calling, or holding off. You see the truth whereas I don't.